Who Is This?

I remember when my mom was in her 70s telling me that every time she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror, she was shocked because she saw an old lady staring back at her and how could that be since her mind still perceived herself as a young woman. I remember smiling kindly at her thinking I would be somehow invincible to this plight.

Well, here we are folks. I’m here to tell you that I’m shocked at least 5x a day even though I try to be diligent about not looking in the mirror as often as possible. But since I’m getting old, I forget not to look and end up cursing almost every single time. And I’ll be damned if I don’t doubletake when I catch my reflection in a store window. I actually shake my head and try to block the fright I just experienced ASAP!

It's just not fair. There are so many positives to aging, but most of them, unfortunately, are mental, not physical. You become wiser, smarter, more appreciative, kinder (although not everyone), and truthfully, I just got stuck. I know there’s more, there must be more, but I can’t think of what else I’ve become other than dismayed. It just seems like a cruel joke to finally come into this great inner person who now lives in a shell bearing quite a bit of wear and tear.

So many people age peacefully and gracefully, why can’t I be one of them?

Are you?

Looking forward to learning your thoughts.